Unwind me
please ...
unwind me
from this tick tock tick tock
may not be from breathing in and out
but
just a stop
to be untied from this world
for a bit, just a bit to bask in nothingness.


--
18/08
while watching 'dead poets society'.

wolfram

http://www.wolframalpha.com/

me - from outside

Ah!

This universe - 100 percent; of which 96 percent is invisible(not only to the eye but to the current scientific eye :)), now the remaining is 4 percent, of which 3.6 percent is galactic gas, i.e gasssssss......, only the remaining 0.4 percent make the actual galaxies, stars, planets etc. Now these stars in groups, groups known as galaxies- may be there are individual stars!!- are.... how many??? umm, about 240 to 250 billion; a billion is 1 followed by 9 zeros so there are 240000000000 galaxies in this 0.4 percent of the total, i.e our universe, (I will let alone, the possibility of other universes). Coming to our universe, coming to galaxies, each galaxy would have roughly say about 100 billion stars, so the total stars are.........dont start multiplying :). let me come to our galaxy, the milky way. Its an average galaxy with about 400 billion stars. our star is, as you know... SUN, one of these 400 billion, is about 30,000 light years from the center of milky way; a light year? its the amount of distance light travels in one year, it actually travels 300,000 km (7 times around our planet) in 1(ONE) second, you may do the math for distance in one year! Next...our Sun, runs its own system, solar system, the system revolving around it, with 8(more so) planets, menny asteroids, commets, planetoids... and the Earth our planet is one of those eight, at a distance of 8 1/2 light minutes from the Sun. get the picture!! no... if an ant, hypothetically, sneezes at center of a football field, its sneeze cloud would be a star system, and the next star would be out side the foot ball field ;)
Coming back to Earth....out of the 100 percent of Earth, 70 percent is water, rest is land ; out of it, only 1/4th of land is arable, 12 million square miles out of 57 million square miles of land ; the human population -- the thinking/intelligent (over -thinking/intelligent) species population is close to 7 billion, and I .... am 1.....one creature out of the seven billion along with the other umpteen number of species having countless creatures-- contending for food, water, space-existence.

నేనే నా... నేనే నా ...
నీవులేక ఇకలోకంలేదనుకుంటుంటే... వింతగవుందీవేళా ...

నీ చూపులే లోకంలా
నీ నవ్వులే లోకంలా
నీ మౌనమే లోకంలా అనిపిస్తుంటే ... వింతగవుందీవేళా ...

మాటలు పెదవుల భందీ ఆయే
తనువేమో తూలేపోయే
ఖైదీనో కానో తెలియకపోయే
కానీ, నేను, నేను కాదనీ నీవని అర్ధం ఆయే .....

do we need nations? - my view

This started as response to Srujan's blog post http://doweneednation.blogspot.com/ but it is not an exact comment/response, but something written after reading that blog (written long back but posted today).

do we need nations?

let me see...

we do need nations... separated by, accepted & respected Logical Boundaries --which have always existed from past to present and will exist in future---. if nations separated by physical boundaries aid this acceptability and mutual respect there is no harm, but on the contrary will help us grow and evolve ; so said.. any boundary physical or logical if not respected will eventually lead to fight for survival of what the people in that nation identify themselves with.

nations are a bigger picture of individuals.

so let me understand the individual -- of course i never understood myself, this is just try to elaborate a piece of individual nature--

Division,differentiation, separation are wired in humans in their very conscience. their identification with self, which implies and leads to I and YOU, we and them, us and others.

this division, or separation is the so called individuality in modern terms---it is actually encouraged in present to have separate individuality from others. the people may think as a collective, outwardly; but there is an I and YOU internally.


when the human race, each and every individual can make that jump/transition of respecting each other as individuals and still doesn't(cannot) feel himself being separate from others... it may sound nonsense, but what I am trying to say is -- each person moving from--- an I -to- we -to- us -- my home to my nation to my species ...

Let me define a nation which i view will exist no matter what!
(it can be teritorial) what does it serve -- an identity. A group, a culture, the thing is something common and collective which identifies a bunch, may be a bigger bunch of people.

each person requires a personal space, they expect others to respect that boundary where u cant barge in, where you get hurt by an intrusion.

we move( may be out of an unknown necessity, a fear) towards finding a strong commonality( from now on commonality implies a strong commonality), something that gets us together, a mutual interest which allows the interaction to evolve closer and if possible lead to intimacy where separation seems illogical, but it starts from that common thing which should and will bring INDIVIDUALS together. If there is no strong commonality, (civilization or culture or the brought up of a social group i.e. society indicates us to respect others views, coz one day u will find yourself in their shoes) a nation cannot be formed; never on a sheet of paper with lines. It makes no sense; but a nation, where ever i refer to nation- i mean a collective group of individuals sharing a commonality- irrespective of sex, age( same sex or same age people can also be a nation). If there is no commonality, they are only individuals; but not collective; i.e you cant tag them(externally) under one commonality. But if there is a commonality which is different from the commonality that people in a different region or people in the same region identify themselves with then that itself forms a nation( no need of a tag, coz whether there is a tag or not they will feel as they are), may be not governed politically under different heads, but these are called communities, places ...may not be geographical but logically --deeply felt separations--- Nations.

the nations which are politically under one head are no problem, let there be a hundred more nations on this earth, let they be seperated by physical boundaries, but if these nations --- these
commonalities, if true ie. if the people comming under one nation truly identify themselves with that commonality--- respect that difference, that separation then there is no issue, no problem, if a nation can help and take help from other nations just as an individual in a collective group is ready to help others as they share that commonality, then the separation is the boundary called a mutually respected national space, if there is no respect then the logical boundaries take form of physical lines which are required to breathe the freedom from forced transformations.

other points .. i thought of but did not elaborate are 1. competition 2. self sufficiency

ఆలోచనలు

ఆలోచనలు
తలనిండా ఆలోచనలు
ఎన్నో, ఎన్నో....ఎన్నెన్నో ఆలోచనలు
నిరూపం కొన్ని నిర్మాణాలు కొన్ని
మాటలై కొన్ని మరుగున కొన్ని
కన్నెర్ర కొన్ని కన్నీరు కొన్ని
అప్పటివి ... ఇప్పటివి ... ఎప్పటివో ..అన్నీ-- ఇన్నీ


తలనరాల చెలరేగే తేనెటీగలల్లె కొన్ని ..తేనె వలె కొన్ని
పుట్టి వెనువెంటనే గిట్టినవి కొన్ని, మర్రి వలె పెరిగినవి కొన్ని
లోపలివి బయటివి ఎక్కడివో? ఎక్కడికనో ఇవన్ని ...

నన్ను నిర్మించేవి నా వెన్ను విరిచేవి
ఉత్సాహ నిచ్చెనల నైరాశ్య సర్పాల వైకుంఠపాళీ ...
మంచని కొన్ని చెడ్డని కొన్ని ఊగిసలాటన ఎన్ని
తప్పని కొన్ని ఒప్పని కొన్ని తక్కెడకెక్కని వెన్ని
అవునని కొన్ని కాదని కొన్ని ఘర్షణలెన్ని ?
ఇప్పుడొకటి అప్పుడొకటి వెనుక వేరొకటి అని గొలుసులుఎన్ని

నేటి వీపునవేసినవి కొన్ని ... మాపు ముంగిట తోసినవి కొన్ని
పాతవి .. క్రొత్తవి .. ప్రతిరూపాలు ...వ్యతిరేకాలు ...
గోదారిలా కొన్ని, గొంగళిలా కొన్ని ...కూడలిన ప్రశ్నార్ధకాలు మరిన్ని
కట్టడి వీలు కాని ...
కానరాని జోరీగలు ... ఆలోచనలు
ఆపలేని నిరంతర అలలు ... ఆలోచనలు
ఊపిరాఖరువరకు ఉండే ....ఆలోచనలు

Mugdha Vaishampayan

mesmerizing